How I've Been Feeling Lately

Lately, even the smallest thing going wrong has been enough to make me feel... really down.

I keep telling myself to pull it together, but honestly it's been tough~

Watching my VTuber friends stream morning and night, every single day, and still get told by viewers that they're not good enough, until they finally burn out and get sick...

If it were just a regular illness, there'd probably be a decent shot at recovery. But what do you even do when it's the kind of sickness that lives in your heart?

I've been through a dark stretch like that myself. I shut myself off from everyone and cried every single day, and if you asked me why, honestly, there wasn't a reason.

Every day was just crying without a reason, until I cried so much I forgot what sadness even was, what happiness even was. I forgot who I even was.

Am I okay now?

Not completely, honestly. There are still days when I feel low, when the sadness creeps back in, but at least I can't cry anymore...

For now, I'm just doing my best to live happily and make my life better!