<Mama's Garden Management Log> 7/18/2023

After wrapping up two weeks of endurance streams on top of prepping for two classes, Mama is genuinely just grateful to still be alive

Hoping next time these don't all overlap though, because I can't handle that again 😂

Between the sub-goal endurance stream and the birthday celebration, I also wanted to follow through on a goal I set for myself during my downtime

For as long as I can remember, socializing has only ever been something I learned because work forced me to. When people call me a social butterfly, I feel like such a fraud... every time I talk to someone I get anxious about accidentally hurting them, which just piles on the stress and makes me not want to meet new people at all.

But if I actually want to keep growing as a streamer, being this passive about relationships holds me back a lot. I wrestled with it for months before finally deciding I had to change something for myself, starting now.

One more thing: the new morning stream project. Longtime viewers have probably noticed I don't usually weigh in on current events. That's not because I don't care about what's happening — I just worry about sparking arguments among viewers. But without any rational discussion at all, we risk just getting played by the media instead. So I'm hoping this new project can help build a habit of friendly, open discussion among all of us.

I've spent almost this whole week resting, hoping to recharge my social battery fast.

There's still so much I want to do, but resting now means going further later (yeah, and by the way, two weeks of nonstop grinding has my eczema absolutely flaring up 😇)

Also, here's a look at my birds~ Just two weeks and they've already gotten this big!

All three chicks can fly now, even if they're still a little clueless about it 😂