Last Week My Mood Was as Unpredictable as the Weather

The weather went from perfectly fine to a total mess out of nowhere.

My mood did the exact same thing.

Honestly, I know deep down what I should be doing, but maybe I've just gotten too used to this relaxed streaming life now, and part of me doesn't want to go back to that hectic, run-ragged version of my life anymore...

So I end up stuck — sad about not making progress on one hand, and resisting the whole idea of growth on the other.

Watching myself be this stubborn and inflexible, I just kept stewing until I started crying...

And I mean, I cried before the stream even started...

I kept thinking, I have all of you around me, I have my viewers, and yet I can't seem to give anything back...

It really made me feel so powerless.

Of course, I've worked through it now — I'm hoping to carry this determined mindset into a good New Year and start the new year off right!

Tiny complaint though — why does it have to get cold right before New Year's?

I really hope it warms up a bit for the holiday!